Lord, i still love You...
Love, it's a crazy thing. But to love seems even more a crazy thing.
It's interesting, but often I feel like I just don't love Him... however, recently I was reminded to just keep telling Him that I love Him... over and over again, saying... "Lord Jesus, I love You." "Lord Jesus, I love You." sometimes by saying this in such a repetitive way, I would get the feeling that I'm trying to convence myself that I still love Him... and I worry that telling Him I love Him runs the risk of having to give up all my other loves when i'm not ready to let them go. to me, loving Him, or atleast telling Him I loved Him was not that "safe" of a thing to do. but last night I read something in chpt two of Life and Building in the Song of Songs in a home mtg...
"Just love Him... do not care for anything else... no other way is so SAFE, so rich, and so full of enjoyment."
And I was reminded that as long as we love Him from the deepest part of our being, everything will be alright. And u know what? We don't have to worry about being hypocritical, because there is LOVE that He has poured out in our hearts for Him in the DEPTHS of our being... in our spirit!! Because He is in our spirit, and He is Love (1 john 4:8) and as long as we stand one with that part of our being and declare, "Lord, I love you... Lord, I still love You... Lord, You know that I love You!..." we are speaking the truth, no matter what our actions speak... and what's awesome is that when we stand with that part of our being... and declare that we love Him... more of His love is poured out in our hearts... we are being painted, permeated, satuated just a little more with His element... and His heart's desire is taking place!! wow! His desire for us to love Him does not require us to let go of everything else first... it's been my experience that even in the midst of my pursuit of other things, as long as i open and just tell Him, "Lord, I still love You," He adds a little more of Himself into my being, still allowing me to do what i do... until eventually without any sense of loss that other thing isn't tugging at my heart anymore... it's really sweet. of course, sometimes i TRY to LET GO of something before i've allowed the Lord to fill that part and it's really all in my own self effort, and hence, a completely painful process... so i don't recommend doing it that way. the Lord's filling doesn't always occur all at once, so you need not worry that telling Him you love Him is going to make you do something you don't want to do... the Lord doesn't make us do anything. it's importand to see that it's not in what we can do for Him out of our own effort, or in how we act(in choosing good over evil, right over wrong), but in how much we exercise to stand ONE with that part of our being, our spirit and allow Him to add Himself to us. everyday He is just waiting for those opportunities for us to open, tell Him we love Him, and to be dispensed into our very being. the fact is, we do love Him...dispite our feelings, dispite what our actions were, and dispite the outward circumstances... we love Him. isn't that sweet!? wow.
so whatever you do today, just remember to tell Him that you love Him... don't let the enemy tell you that you're a hypocite. rather, stand not with your actions, but with your spirit. let Him saturate you more with Himself. then carry on with your day, responding to His drawing with more "lord i love You's" not caring for right or wrong, good or evil, or even letting go... just love Him. do not care for anything else, just love Him.
Lord, I love u, I still love You...
mlejane
It's interesting, but often I feel like I just don't love Him... however, recently I was reminded to just keep telling Him that I love Him... over and over again, saying... "Lord Jesus, I love You." "Lord Jesus, I love You." sometimes by saying this in such a repetitive way, I would get the feeling that I'm trying to convence myself that I still love Him... and I worry that telling Him I love Him runs the risk of having to give up all my other loves when i'm not ready to let them go. to me, loving Him, or atleast telling Him I loved Him was not that "safe" of a thing to do. but last night I read something in chpt two of Life and Building in the Song of Songs in a home mtg...
"Just love Him... do not care for anything else... no other way is so SAFE, so rich, and so full of enjoyment."
And I was reminded that as long as we love Him from the deepest part of our being, everything will be alright. And u know what? We don't have to worry about being hypocritical, because there is LOVE that He has poured out in our hearts for Him in the DEPTHS of our being... in our spirit!! Because He is in our spirit, and He is Love (1 john 4:8) and as long as we stand one with that part of our being and declare, "Lord, I love you... Lord, I still love You... Lord, You know that I love You!..." we are speaking the truth, no matter what our actions speak... and what's awesome is that when we stand with that part of our being... and declare that we love Him... more of His love is poured out in our hearts... we are being painted, permeated, satuated just a little more with His element... and His heart's desire is taking place!! wow! His desire for us to love Him does not require us to let go of everything else first... it's been my experience that even in the midst of my pursuit of other things, as long as i open and just tell Him, "Lord, I still love You," He adds a little more of Himself into my being, still allowing me to do what i do... until eventually without any sense of loss that other thing isn't tugging at my heart anymore... it's really sweet. of course, sometimes i TRY to LET GO of something before i've allowed the Lord to fill that part and it's really all in my own self effort, and hence, a completely painful process... so i don't recommend doing it that way. the Lord's filling doesn't always occur all at once, so you need not worry that telling Him you love Him is going to make you do something you don't want to do... the Lord doesn't make us do anything. it's importand to see that it's not in what we can do for Him out of our own effort, or in how we act(in choosing good over evil, right over wrong), but in how much we exercise to stand ONE with that part of our being, our spirit and allow Him to add Himself to us. everyday He is just waiting for those opportunities for us to open, tell Him we love Him, and to be dispensed into our very being. the fact is, we do love Him...dispite our feelings, dispite what our actions were, and dispite the outward circumstances... we love Him. isn't that sweet!? wow.
so whatever you do today, just remember to tell Him that you love Him... don't let the enemy tell you that you're a hypocite. rather, stand not with your actions, but with your spirit. let Him saturate you more with Himself. then carry on with your day, responding to His drawing with more "lord i love You's" not caring for right or wrong, good or evil, or even letting go... just love Him. do not care for anything else, just love Him.
Lord, I love u, I still love You...
mlejane
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