chance meeting...sept 20, 06

I just met a lady named Tiffany at Jo's. She's going to her 20th yr HS reunion soon, and she's never been married, nor divorced, she used to be a teacher, then a real estate person, but now she's exploring writing. She stopped to talk to me because she saw my newly-goodwill-purchase of a book: If You Want To Write by Brenda Ueland.

I really like that she's out here writing to discover her true self... we discussed we are of the transient type: Adaptable to those around us, but so much the so that we don't know who our true self is. But in speaking to her, I think we both came to realize that THAT is part of who our true self is. And coming to realize that is crucial to the genuine discovery of what makes us happy in life and what we like to do...

Seriously though, it was really, uhm, can I say: Shepherding, to talk to her. Strangely (I say that becuase it's against my concept that someone 'not in the church' could be used by the Lord to shepherd me in this time) my soul was comforted that I could relate to someone, that I could meet someone with whom I felt a connection with... someone pretty, in a time of self-discovery, who genuinely appears happy and free and confident during such a time that she will discover the thing that will make her whole. All the while learning to not feel condemned for not being where we think we need to be in life and where things are for us. We spoke of transitions and how they scare us. Of flightiness and how it pisses us off. Of the insability of such ones as we... but realizing that we've been delt this hand in life for the growth of our being... let's enjoy it.

I spoke of my stability with Jesus, and the instability with my life, my education, in brief my BF-status, my change in living situation,...things like that,... and well, I found such an extreme ease in speaking with her, it was such a relief from all the conversations that I have been trying to have in figuring out my life these days. Life is too short to spend my hours figuring out the whens, the hows, and such. ANd before I start to do so in this piece of work, I'm going to sign off.

well, I've really sat here at Jo's... for an incredible ammount of time... probably should go, not sure where to, but to another place for a while to read, relax, and not sit in condemnation of 'not being the FTer that I think I am employed to be'.

i-ee speak-ee english...

I have been asked twice in the last few months about teaching English in Asia. I get the idea that they think quite highly of the teaching perfession over there. And when they hear that I have my teaching credentials, they oo-and-awh over it and almost beg me to go teach there. Appearantly it's in high demand and an incredible opportunity to pay off my student loans. I've thought about it before, but to be truthful it's been a passing thought. But recently I have been considering the weight of my loans, and welcoming the idea of change (imagine that, I'm admitting that a change sounds appealing). Of course, I may get over there and feel completely different about it, but one of my good friends has also been thinking about doing such an adventure... and I can't help but think that having a buddy there with me would help cushion any fears that I would have doing it alone. Well, it's still all just a passing thought, but one that I am beginning to entertain.